Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Forever Young. Happy Birthday, Dad.
Happy birthday, Dad! Today I felt weird, out of sorts, somber, and was just in a funk. I miss you every day and wish you were here. It has been nice to talk about you a lot lately... kinda makes me happy because I like to keep your memory alive, but also kinda makes me sad because it makes me miss you. Can't believe you would have been the big 5-0 today! Well, you are forever young. Thanks for giving me life, Dad.
Luv,
Little Little
Sunday, January 2, 2011
I Loved You Because You First Loved Me
Dear Dad,
Well, it has been six years. Whew. Sometimes it seems like just yesterday and sometimes it seems like forever ago. I had a really good cry for you the other night. I know that I am a very strong person, but there are moments when I feel weak and you are the one person I wish I could visit with. That seems to be the most difficult for me.
Not too many new things happened for me this year. I have a wonderful group of kiddos and my grad classes are pretty smooth... just a couple more to go and this time next year I should be looking at a graduation in the near future ;)
Henry is getting big... he is so darn sweet and smart. I love teaching him new things. Funny thing is... I teach him words in Cup'ik even though that's not his heritage! lol He is pretty good at it, which always makes me smile big. He was given a new cousin in December... Nola Marie. It is going to be fun to see what she grows up to look like and become. I absolutely love being an auntie, though it is different with her being so far away. Henry is like my little buddy since I have been able to have lots of special memories with him since he was first born. I wonder how many more kids the girls will have...
Well, this was my first New Year's Eve in Chevak and it was actually really, really nice. I have some good friends out here and we put on a lil' firework show, had snacks, danced, and played games. You can't beat good company, food, and music ;) It was a good time and it made missing you less intense on the anniversary. My aide, Priscilla-- her dad passed away on New Year's a few years ago so I told her that you guys were smiling down on us. There's got to be some truth in that.
As you watch over me... I ask this of you... help me choose good men in my life. Whoever they are. I have so much love to give, yet I have given it to the wrong people over the years. Give me reminders that I am a princess, a daughter of a king :) My brain knows this, but I think I am gonna need your help. So, Dad, that is your job while you are watching over me. Help me protect my heart and be faithful and mindful. I know he's out there...
Here are the lyrics to the song that was playing that Sunday at church... it made me bawl. Suzy was kind enough to play it for us at your funeral. I love you, Dad. Miss you always.
"How can I show you that I love you? Words can't express just how I feel. I love you because you first loved me. Your love has set me free. I can love because you first loved me. I can love because you first loved me..."
Luv,
Little Little
Well, it has been six years. Whew. Sometimes it seems like just yesterday and sometimes it seems like forever ago. I had a really good cry for you the other night. I know that I am a very strong person, but there are moments when I feel weak and you are the one person I wish I could visit with. That seems to be the most difficult for me.
Not too many new things happened for me this year. I have a wonderful group of kiddos and my grad classes are pretty smooth... just a couple more to go and this time next year I should be looking at a graduation in the near future ;)
Henry is getting big... he is so darn sweet and smart. I love teaching him new things. Funny thing is... I teach him words in Cup'ik even though that's not his heritage! lol He is pretty good at it, which always makes me smile big. He was given a new cousin in December... Nola Marie. It is going to be fun to see what she grows up to look like and become. I absolutely love being an auntie, though it is different with her being so far away. Henry is like my little buddy since I have been able to have lots of special memories with him since he was first born. I wonder how many more kids the girls will have...
Well, this was my first New Year's Eve in Chevak and it was actually really, really nice. I have some good friends out here and we put on a lil' firework show, had snacks, danced, and played games. You can't beat good company, food, and music ;) It was a good time and it made missing you less intense on the anniversary. My aide, Priscilla-- her dad passed away on New Year's a few years ago so I told her that you guys were smiling down on us. There's got to be some truth in that.
As you watch over me... I ask this of you... help me choose good men in my life. Whoever they are. I have so much love to give, yet I have given it to the wrong people over the years. Give me reminders that I am a princess, a daughter of a king :) My brain knows this, but I think I am gonna need your help. So, Dad, that is your job while you are watching over me. Help me protect my heart and be faithful and mindful. I know he's out there...
Here are the lyrics to the song that was playing that Sunday at church... it made me bawl. Suzy was kind enough to play it for us at your funeral. I love you, Dad. Miss you always.
"How can I show you that I love you? Words can't express just how I feel. I love you because you first loved me. Your love has set me free. I can love because you first loved me. I can love because you first loved me..."
Luv,
Little Little
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